Bare nekkid part 2

I didn't get this way overnight, I didn't wake up one day 300+ lbs ... It was over the course of 8 years, 4 miscarriages, 2 serious bouts of depression, a few rendezvous with daily drinking, coupled with self image of a princess but self worth of a flee. Not a good mix. 

The other day my children's pediatrician was raving about how well they are doing and giving a glowing recommendation for our upcoming adoption and at the end she ever so gently placed her hand on my knee and said, take care of you too mum. And then left. Not profound, not a big speech .. Just gentle, quiet, short and sweet. I'm not sure she knew the impact it would have on me but it was in that moment I decided. I was worth it. I was desperate. 

Have you ever made a whirlpool ? You get that current really moving and then turn and try to go against it? It's fun right? Not so much with this weight thing, it's like my current has been going one way for so long that turning against it is threatening to sweep me up in the tides and carry me off. Expect my feet are planted and I will wait it out if I have to. 

I can. I will. I am! With water core strengthening and water aerobics 3 days a week and 2 days a week cardio and strength training I will turn this tide around. I can do it. I will be healthy. I am worth it! I can. I will. I am.