Bare nekkid part 2

I didn't get this way overnight, I didn't wake up one day 300+ lbs ... It was over the course of 8 years, 4 miscarriages, 2 serious bouts of depression, a few rendezvous with daily drinking, coupled with self image of a princess but self worth of a flee. Not a good mix. 

The other day my children's pediatrician was raving about how well they are doing and giving a glowing recommendation for our upcoming adoption and at the end she ever so gently placed her hand on my knee and said, take care of you too mum. And then left. Not profound, not a big speech .. Just gentle, quiet, short and sweet. I'm not sure she knew the impact it would have on me but it was in that moment I decided. I was worth it. I was desperate. 

Have you ever made a whirlpool ? You get that current really moving and then turn and try to go against it? It's fun right? Not so much with this weight thing, it's like my current has been going one way for so long that turning against it is threatening to sweep me up in the tides and carry me off. Expect my feet are planted and I will wait it out if I have to. 

I can. I will. I am! With water core strengthening and water aerobics 3 days a week and 2 days a week cardio and strength training I will turn this tide around. I can do it. I will be healthy. I am worth it! I can. I will. I am. 

Is anyone out there??

Just checking in to see if anyone is out there??? I'd like to get to the bare nekkid truth here about losing weight:

1. It's a lot of work

2. Walking/jogging on the tread mill does not burn nearly enough calories for the effort Im putting in - haha

3. I have gone 1 week dedicated to tracking my food on my fit pal, have been to the gym twice with a friend and have gone for 4 walk/hikes and made conscious efforts to move more!


That said, I FEEL GREAT! REally it's like my inner "skinny chick" is begging to break out of this cage I have it locked in.. Don't worry thinner Faith - I'll break you free ... just have to wait till I join that spin class, then we'll be cooking with crisco :)

THY WORD - MICHAEL W. SMITH & AMY GRANT

Thy Word - Maranatha Singers

The Weaver.......between my Lord and me.....

The Weaver


My life is but a weaving

between my Lord and me,

I cannot chose the colors

He worketh steadily.

Oft times He weaveth sorrow

And I, in foolish pride,

Forget He sees the upper,

And I the under side.


Not til the loom is silent

And the shuttles cease to fly,

Shall God unroll the canvas

And explain the reason why.


The dark threads are as needful

In the Weaver's skillful hand,

As the threads of gold and silver

In the pattern He has planned.


He knows, He loves, He cares,

Nothing this truth can dim.

He gives His very best to those

Who leave the choice with Him.

~Benjamin M. Franklin~

1882-1965

Originally printed in The Memphis Commerical Appeal, 1950

Do this in remembrance of me

Yesterday was communion Sunday at Holden Chapel. I try to approach communion with a proper reverence and it seems that as I age, each opportunity to share at the Lord's table leads me deeper into an appreciation for what this common meal symbolizes.

I gazed at the other communicants in the sanctuary and processed the mystery of consuming a little of each of them and how that builds a stronger me. Each person who comes before God, searching for relationship with Him, brings something that we don't have, something that we can grow stronger from sharing.

I must admit that I am by nature drawn to certain people more than others, but the sharing at the Lord's table reminds us to look for the good in others, to desire it and to appreciate it. Much like manna we need to eat it fresh each day. We can't store it up. It goes bad. If we donn't eat enough we go hungry.

Come to the table friends and partake of the Lord's banquet. It's a rich and rewarding experience.

If God is for us..........

who can be against us? Have you ever thought about this? As we encounter various trials in our every day lives it is good to remember that God is for us. He is not only a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our paths; He works all things together for good!


Scripture for Today:

Romans 8:28-31
28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. 31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Prayer for Today:

Father, you have called us for a work that we don't always see the purpose of. Open the eyes of our understanding that we would see with Your eyes and trust that you have the best for us in mind.

Challenge: Are you predestined?